Not the car

There is a knot inside my tummy
There is a pain in my old head
When I think about my problems
Or that mean thing someone said
As I stare at that white ceiling
All my worries overpower me
I feel so insignificant
While my monsters devour me
I try to calm myself
By remembering what I know
I look deep inside of me
To my quiet place I go
There’s something I forget from time to time
Love will conquer fear and make me whole
I am not the car, I am the passenger
I am not the body but the soul
I feel bleary-eyed and tired
There’s a pain inside my gut
My physique is out of order
By I can’t tell you what
While I wallow in discomfort
And hope and pray to get better
I feel my happiness slip away
To reveal a mood that’s bitter
I try to calm myself
By remembering what I know
I look deep inside of me
To my quiet place I go
There’s something I forget from time to time
Love will conquer fear and make me whole
I am not the car, I am the passenger
I am not the body but the soul

Peace – 2020
Ellen Pels Band:
Lead vocals: Ellen Pels
Piano, Fender Rhodes, Keyboard, Vibraphone: Tony Hoyting
Acoustic and Electric guitar: Klaas-Jelmer Sixma
Bassguitar and Double Bass: Pieter Althuis
Drums: Joost Visser
Percussion: Gijs Anders van Straalen
Saxophone: Tibor Elferink
Trumpet and Flugelhorn: Libbe Oosterman
Trombone: Arend Huisman
Backing Vocals: Inze Meijer, Florens Eykemans, Mousmé Brocaar, Ellen Pels